Romans 12:12

Hope and a Future

Blessing Through a Chance

I've been doing well recently, thank you for asking hahaha
It turns out that this semester is going to be unexpected one
Simple example, for one of our subjects, we are required to build a robot, and my friend without my knowing, telling the supervisor that we will register for PRIDE competition (robotic competition), I just found out after the supervisor asked me about registeration email and stuffs (I was like: WHAAD, Seriously, dude!??). Hope we can accomplish everything by the end of semester.

Okay, anywayy...
Last time I realized that I needed to focus on some things
However, this year I got a chance to have futsal practise, which I've been longing since long time ago. The practise schedule matches my timetable (previously I couldn't play anymore due to important things to do during weekends) and moreoever it is subsidized, thanks to Monash (or Shaf?) and Coach Kevin Yee.
(Tuhan tau banget gua sering bokek :') ).
Never expected this though

I was introduced to Monash Futsal Captain: Shaf, by Vedo Irawan, a friend of mine whom I met when I was actively playing futsal, then I joined their games several times because their GK just graduated and also introduced to Kevin (whom Valiant told me about. Last year, we played against Kevin's team, RG during a Futsal Competition at Ferro. Of course we lost #justsaying hahaha).
He's a really good coach, kind of fatherly, that's what makes me respect him more.
I don't know why, but the moment is 'just nice' :D

Thank You for the chance, I started to come to their practises, learnt a lot of new things and met many talented people, the ones I met recently or even ones who are famous since long time ago (like Zec, Hassan, RG players).
I know I'm kind of clumsy playing on the rubber floor, my feet often get stuck here and there, messing up my timing every time hahaha.
Nevertheless, futsal is fun :P

When I looked back, there was a time when my friends got intimidated by my determination to improve (too much is a bad thing, though), but this time I have a great circumstance where I need to improve myself and that's all. I don't have to think of this and that, considering this and that, it's simply: Playing futsal.
Sounds fun eh? It sure is :D

Yea, I'm still focusing myself on my service, calling and study in Malaysia, and during my spare time, I play futsal with these talented young players and Kevin. It's really such a pleasure.

Thank You!

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Heyy 2013

This is not a late post about New Year

I know I'm always a bit behind the development, but by no means this time haha

As I wrote previously, about people who sharpened me more and more

I would like to give another big thanks for them, I appreciate their faithfulness in accompanying me

And this post is about more personal things :P

In this 2013, the more I can see that I can be rather annoying for some personal issues

I can still remember how until 2009, I kept suppressing my emotions and became a really mediocre person

Even in 2010, I literally ask my mentor, how to express a certain feeling (that I later recognized as sadness) hahaha. 

It does sound weird, but well, I'm not that expressive as I might seem you know

I learn to become more of myself, as how God has designed me to be

Even today, I'm still learning

You know, I became a close friend of certain someone this year (I'm not ignoring my best friends, fresh comms and families, you guys do a really good job in staying close with me haha, but this time let me express my gratitude more toward this person)

Setelah gua kenal dekat sama dia, semakin keliatan gua itu nyebelin di sisi mana2 aja, like seriously? I don't even know this part of me.

Berantem? It's common thing

Tapi biasanya gua berantem karena urusan2 serius: pelayanan, tugas, tim karena beda pendapat, penyesuaian visi misi, menyesuaikan antara plan dan keadaan dan alasan2 'keren' lainnya.

Tahun ini sangat2 berbeda dan bikin shock, gua bisa berantem karena personal feeling

Biasanya gua tahan, bawa dalam doa n beres (intinya jadikan sebagai bahan personal gua dan Tuhan deh), kali ini herannya ga bisa lho :s

Jelas, semakin keliatan harus dipertajam di mana2 aja

You know what, I think it really does take special someone/people to deal with this kind of side of mine

One day God told me: "Son, I want you to be happy". I was flattered and happy, but I was also questioning "what kind of happiness do You mean?". Last sunday, Ps. Julian Foe conveyed a powerful message to me about : Happily incompatible!

We have so many incompatibiities, but I think that's the art of God's love

I was greatly, deeply and largely shaped after I know this person, like how I met you guys
I'm sorry and thank you :D
I'm amazed by God's love :)

Hope you are not giving up on us, thank you for being there big time, especially during my life in Malaysia!

God bless you

ps: I'm NOT leaving Malaysia any time soon, so it's NOT a goodbye message, haha!

New Chapter 23/05/2013

Hey there, so this is about processes I've been going through til today :)

Years have passed and I know that I've grown and I'm still growing
1-2 years ago I was offered a certain responsibility, which was a huge one, (started from a smaller one for sure), yet in doing that, I faced many pressures from many places.
Fulfilling these tasks are not easy, even without them, studying Mechatronics in Monash is never easy since the beginning

But I looked at how God has led me through years of processes, and wow, I'm standing firmer compared to how I did before :)
God never ceases to amaze me!
Through commitments I built with people I love: Fresh Com, Fresh Ministry, ISCF (until last year) etc. I was brought to a long journey that sharpens me very much.

There was times when I felt like I'd fallen and I was just holding a spiky rope to make sure I didn't fall off. I often thought, why I should keep some of these. I'm bleeding because I try to put everything together, maybe it's better if I release my hands, that's not my responsibility (I had this option actually, after consulting with my leaders, and I know noone would blame me for quitting in a good manner).

I kept learning about priorities and commitments, even higher price I should pay, tears-sweat-blood I should shed and often time I was brought down to my knees.
But that's not my point, for everything I pay for Jesus is worth it
Even currently I can't foresee how these services and efforts (ministries, study, cell groups) will turn out to be, I just believe "He has made everything beautiful in its time" (Ecc 3:11a)

Ah, about commitment, through these people I learn so many things I never expected actually, some of them sharpen me really 'harshly' that sometimes I unconsciously tried to run away.
What I mean is not about sharpening process that may cause anger, misunderstanding etc (you may suspect what Kak Tama did to me, but this is not about him :P), it's about them who sharpen me due to their past, their relationship with me, their words, their behaviour, or their lifestyles.

Once Kak Tama told me: "Beruntung ya kamu, dapet anak2 komsel yang baik."
Compared to these "new" commitments I got myself into, I could say that my previous commitments/communities are really good and soft. I'm thankful meeting them, cell group mates who didn't cause too much troubles haha!

I might be hurt  here and there, yet I'm still holding on, it is because I can see God's plan for me through this year's processes, this new chapter. There are many aspects of my life that haven't been spotlighted, because it was not the time yet, not it's the time.
I could run away (not an option, just my ego, although noone would blame me either), I could be giving logical reasons, I could use "how do I know that this is my time to do this?"
I just know one thing: God wants me to be faithful in this new level, this sole reason is enough compared with other reasons I could think of to avoid this process.

Like everyone else, many things were unclear at first, and I just walked by faith step by step. As results, I started to know myself even deeper, about my weaknesses unexposed before (I did not even know this aspect of mine), learnt to overcome my feeling, to stay neutral in facing problem (mine or other people's) and see from God's perspectives. I learn all of these through this year's chapter of life ;), but above all else, I'm grateful that I could learn more about God's Heart!

Hey you guys, who sharpen me many times, I thank y'all.
I hope I'm not the only one who learn from our journey together,
and let's keep praying for one another.
God bless :)

Engkau di Dalamku - Total Submission

Hey guys
Been a long time since I felt the overwhelming feelings that I needed to write something

I know that life with God is full of adventures
But I never asked it to be like the J-Dorama, K-Drama or whatsoever (or I might have, too much manga/anime when I was a kid maybe)
I realized that recently my life turned to be quite complicated, full of emotions, wonderful things...
I was having this kind of feeling "We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun" (Terry Jacks)
It was fun, filled with joy, tears and smiles

I think I gotta be thankful for being invited to participate in this 'movie' haha
Life with God is never boring indeed and I'm sincerely grateful for that
All my best kept things: A certain principle, dreams, or even my whole life's plan were being turned upside down by God (certainly for a beautiful purpose, I haven't seen right now)
Just right after the moment I could accept that God's plan, I was slapped and told not to be arrogant for the strengths came from God Himself.
It continued to the point where I was reminded again about Total Submission/Surrender

Please pardon me, I would like to present you Sidney Mohede's song that reminds me about Total Submission:


ENGKAU DI DALAMKU
Pongky Prasetyo & Sidney Mohede
Giving My Best


KAULAH PENULIS HIDUPKU
KAU MEMBUAT S'GALANYA BARU
ENGKAU DI DALAMKU
DAN KUADA DALAM-MU
TAK ADA YANG TAK MUNGKIN BAGI-MU

KU DICIPTA UNTUK-MU
'TUK MEMBAWA HARUM NAMA-MU
ENGKAU DI DALAMKU
DAN KUADA DALAM-MU
KINI KUDATANG MENCARI WAJAH-MU

MENGASIHI-MU S'LALU DENGAN S'GENAP HATIKU
MENCINTAI SELURUH PERBUATAN-MU
MENGABDIKAN HIDUPKU SESUAI RENCANA-MU
KU MAU MENYEMBAH-MU SAMPAI AKHIR HAYATKU

KAU MEMAHAMI HATIKU
HANYA KAU YANG MENGERTIKU S'LALU
ENGKAU DI DALAMKU DAN KUADA DALAM-MU
KINI KU DATANG MENCARI WAJAH-MU



The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
    may the name of the Lord be praised.” - Job 1:21b

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TGIF: Trust! God is Faithful

Hey you, whoever you are, who've been with me as friends in my inner circle for a long time or even recently (especially this year). This is for you!

I can't express how grateful I am to know you guys
Being trusted by you
Sharing our life's stories
Support one another
Watch each others' back
Unite to walk on God's will (Phil 3:10-11 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.)

One more time, thank you for your willingness to share your stories with me.
And as you've always known: I'm a good secret-keeper ;)
Through every process with you, I'm asking more and more of God and His heart
"Not only to accept the past but also to help, support and maintain each others until we win our fights"


Short story, it was not before this year I found my calling and was affirmed about this.
In an instance, God said: "Okay, You've got your part (what you'd been asking for), haven't you? Now it's your turn to help your friends."
And boom! Welcome to One on One, where I learnt to know some people even deeper


Meeting these people, I was like: "Eh, that happened to me? Really? Me? Yesterday? Dia? dan dia? ... ...." (terus berasa dicubit n dibilang: "Sudah, sudah, itu bukan mimpi. Bantu mereka dalam pergumulan2 mereka, temani mereka untuk semakin mengenal Aku")
It  does feel like it is a dream, but it's not.


Another process: There is my one HUGE principle in my whole life, and it was suddenly being turned upside down.
Again, I was like: Aw, mannn.... Aw, mannn... Aw, mannn.... (you can repeat it many times until you're satisfied, haha), I didn't even know what to say anymore at that time.

You know what else even made me speechless? 

In one single day

Morning: I finally learnt to reconcile with my friend's past,

Afternoon-evening: Two different people affirmed my struggling through their different speeches, 

and at Night, I was told: "Now you're able to accept his/her past. Don't be arrogant! Thinking like you're capable enough to accept it. It's not by your might, it's Mine. It's not about you, it's about Me."

(sounds harsh, but I didn't respond it that way, because I know He's teaching me about TOTAL Surrender/Submission to His power)


I don't have any other ulterior motives to pray and support you all (it's never for my purpose, or that I'm a too kind/generous person and stuffs. Should I have that kind of motives, I'd been broken down unto pieces since the very first time we met)
I'm just really longing that we win against our struggle, no matter how TOUGH it is
On the other hand, I'm really really blessed that I learn to walk my life more in total submission to Him, that I need His heart.
Believe it, our sharing session would be long ended if we (I) don't have God's heart.

Not that I've obtained everything about His heart, like what Paul said on Phil 3:12

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.

Do not give up, pals!
We're destined to be a winner in Christ
Do our part, be faithful in our process, depend solely on Him, leave out the rest to Him :)
#LiveBold
TGIF: Trust! God is Faithful

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